yyland

So this is yyland.

i’m not quite sure whether this is going to be a new blog, a nother blog or just a(n) experiment. one can delete wordpress blogs, right? haha. but i’m just feeling that usual antsy feeling again. like g says, i also need to be hooked on something. life really does suck when you have nothing to look forward to, no fresh zings, no nothing except frustration, irritation, anger and their various friends.

so this is me, trying to create a space where i can breathe, i guess.

i want to feel happy when i wake up again, the way i used to in AJ. i used to wake up when my alarm rang and be glad that i was going to school. now i wake up and just groan and roll over.

i want that fresh, happy feeling back, that contentment with the world and myself. i want to be carefree and able to feel happy again. not picket-fence happy, or powder-blue-and-candy-pink happy either. just content, happy. you know happy? just happy. happyhappyhappy kind of happy. ebullient. exuberant. yay-y.

haha.

guess i seem to have settled for retarded, eh?

haha. in any case, this is just an experiment.

we’ll see what happens.